“Why is my life so horrible, doctor? Why? Everything has been going wrong..why??”
I was addressed these questions by a 65 year old lady today. She is a diabetic who has recurrent UTIs. And hence she had come to the hospital. I just happened to get some extra time with her and started talking. And then she tells me about the sudden death of her daughter. How her health has not improved ever since and how her family was torn apart..then she went on to tell about her grandson..he is 6 years old but has developmental delay and has not started walking. I watched as her tear filled eyes suddenly glistened with joy as she started talking about her grandson. But soon the sunshine of the small joys the child brings was eclipsed by fears for his future.
I had no answers. Why do things go wrong in our lives? Why do some people seem like constant targets while others have a very smooth ride through the rugged terrains of life? Why? I simply don’t know. Is god not watching? I’m sure he is. Then why is he not taking any actions to help people out? I smiled helplessly as this old mother’s questions bore through my conscience, straight into the arms of Christ. Lord, I have no right to question you. But if there is something I can tell a person in such distress, give me wisdom to talk. And I hope you will give this family the strength to hold on- to the promise that there will be a day when every tear will be wiped away. Hold on.