New year seems like the best time to glance back at the previous year and retrospect. 2020 is definitely not in the good books of most people yet I would like to look back in gratitude.
I am glad that we made it through. Many fellow beings were not so lucky as the virus or some other mishap cut short their stay on earth. By the grace of the Almighty, all my dear ones with whom I began 2020 are still around even if we are separated by distance. All of them are alive and happy. This is the greatest blessing this year. And it reminds me-” not by our might, but by His grace…”
There were no major life changing events last year. No milestones were achieved. Yet it was a great year. I learned to enjoy and appreciate the little things in life. Last year was all about getting out of my comfort zone. It was not easy but I tried, failed, tried and succeeded.
An important lesson learned was that many an adventure awaits just at the other side of fear. The person who was petrified about driving was blessed to learn to drive. It was a moment of praise and joy when I was able to drive on my own.
My legs would simply refuse to rise as I tried to swim. Just go in and try to let go, Bawana’s simple advice worked like magic as I tried to swim towards her extended arms. Nope.. Can’t swim well yet.. But I am over the fear of water. This also taught me that it’s never too late to learn or be anything new. All that is needed is that first step.
The hike to watch the sunset at Nainital was the first attempt at hiking. I was panting like a dog yet made it to the top. It was a moment of personal pride, one that many may not understand. All thanks to the friend who had the patience to be with me in spite of the fact that I was slowing him down. He let me move at my pace and we made it to the top. Note for self: Do this to others too…..in any field at any point in time.
From being the one whose heart would skip a beat if she saw a dog coming towards her, I became a dog person. All thanks to Joey. He was a lost puppy. Someone in the hostel found him and decided to keep him. I am glad she did. With Joey, I learned to get over my fear of dogs. Now I am no longer scared of them. I can stop to pat them and even let them sit next to me. Long way indeed.
Testing positive for COVID-19 took away almost a month of this year. But it was a time for retrospection. A time of rest and healing. Understood that people who are meant to be will stick by, no matter what.
Then there were the little things. Learned to cook myself a decent dinner. Made an attempt to eat healthy and exercise. Laughed tears of joy and cried pools of despair. Enjoyed dancing(no matter how awkward). Learned to play cards. Spent quality time with family and friends. Painted a wall. Published a research paper and a review article. Read more than a dozen books. Learned to do French braid. Wrote a poem. Little things.
Also learned to set small goals for myself. It was good realization that it is better to compete with yourself than others. “A flower does not think of competing with the flower next to it. It just blooms.”…This was a great life lesson. It is no longer about being like someone else. All I try is to be a better person than I was. And that gives a lot of respite from problems in life.
I write this sitting under a pine tree with the musical of the sea in the background, my heart content. Nothing grand happened, but I leave 2020 with gratitude and a hope of being a better person.. And as I continue this journey, I am grateful for the small bunch of people who have stood by and walk with me to the new year.